Waiting to exhale.

Today is the 2nd March, I have officially been in business for a day, my first pop up shop is tomorrow and I feel like I am holding my breath. It’s like that moment on the roller coaster when you’ve chugged up the steep incline and you’re facing the stomach lurching drop below. It seemed like a good idea at the time but now you’re not so sure. Invariably the ride only lasts a few minutes and you do get off feeling exhilarated if not a little queasy. These are all the things I am feeling about my new business.

This is me though; this is who I am and how I do things. I live my life by milestones. I tell myself if I can just get through to the next milestone everything will be fine. Getting the business ready was all about reaching the 1st March, designing the brand, buying stock, building the website, all in anticipation of getting safely to the date and being ready. When the website when live yesterday we had a little switching on ceremony in the kitchen. Standing round my laptop, my husband, sons and I watched to a drum roll as the holding page came down and with it a small sigh of relief.

Less than 24 hours later though I am holding my breath again. Now I am waiting to see if I can make a success of it. This particular breath will probably be held for the vast part of the next month. It won’t be enough to just have tomorrows pop up shop, I will need to know I have it in me to do more than one.

I think as women we probably hold our breath more than men. It’s part of our “think ahead” programming. My husband very much lives in the moment, forward thinking is absolutely not his thing. He doesn’t understand milestones, in fact he would say he doesn’t need them. He is more likely to say something like “If you don’t know where you’re going, you can’t get lost.”

For me, not knowing where I am going is the same thing as being lost. Am I alone in this, or are there others out there following milestones and trying not to get lost to? Let me know.

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